After being healed supernaturally of a Tubular Pregnancy... the Pastor of the Church I was visiting spoke of a healing in his own life and healings of other Pastors.  He gave Testimony of a recent time when he was taking an Eye Exam at DMV. He said he had been given the Gift of Faith to believe God was going to heal his eyes when he took his eye exam.  When it was his turn he took off his glasses and tried to read the letters.  As the woman behind the counter asked him if he could see the letters he'd respond, 'I believe I can see'.

The letters did not come into focus until this woman frustrated, finally said, 'Then read the letters!'

In his enthusiasm, this Pastor then encouraged us to step out in faith and line up near the Pulpit and allow himself or one of the Church Leaders to lay hands on us that we might receive the healing power of God, based upon New Testament Scriptures. 

My eyesight was in need of healing, so after that Sermon every time there was a healing line, I stepped out for the healing of my eyes, but nothing happened. One Person said I did not have enough faith, so I needed to envision the healing and to prove I believed by stepping out in faith and taking off my glasses and claiming it, for it to come into being.  Assuming as a Leader they knew best and remembering the Testimony of the Pastor, as a new Believer this made sense. Presuming this is what God would want, without seeking His truth of the matter for myself, I took off my glasses and stumbled around ... naming and claiming my physical healing for a period of time. Meanwhile, this Pastor continued teaching Sermons on the healing power of God and our Spiritual Authority as born again Believers. I knew God heals experientially already, so my heart bore witness to His healing power. The Revelation of claiming my Spiritual Authority through my union with Christ and the indwelling of the Holy Spirit. was one which was new and I embraced it with the understanding of a Spiritual Infant. When some of us did not get our healing right away, Pastor taught us to keep claiming it with positive confessions and prayers of spiritual warfare. Eventually he also taught that we must be in need of seeking God as to which sin was keeping us from getting our healing. Nothing the Pastor told me to do worked and I was beginning to become swallowed up in condemnati. I became confused.  Realizing condemnation and confusion are not fruits of the Holy Spirit, I found my self at a loss as to what to do. About that time we were told we just did not have enough faith and we needed to seek the Spirit of the Lord for more ... Fasting and deliverance was recommended.

Upon hearing this, I sensed a need to take a Sabbatical and chose to fast and pray alone at that time.  After asking for a word from the Spirit of the Lord regarding Father's mind on these matters, I waiting with a listening heart.  I prayed in tongues with a sense of expectancy, but had no preconceived expectations. Eventually I fell asleep...

I woke up hearing the words, 'Having your feet shod with the preparation of the Gospel of Peace,' and realized I had lost the peace Jesus had originally imparted and was in need of having it renewed.

Next I heard, 'The Word of the Lord came unto Jeremiah. The Word of the Lord came unto Ezekiel, The Word of the Lord came unto Isaiah and Moses ... The word of the Lord did not come to you and tell you to take off your glasses and claim My healing power with Spiritual Authority. Put your glasses back on.'

I am reminded of a dream I had where as a little child I was trying to wield a Giant Sword. When I awoke from the dream I was given the impression, I needed to grow before I could pick up the Sword and use it with Authority.

When I realized I was walking in presumption, I reacted with anger.  I asked Father, 'After I asked to be led to the Church of Your choice, with the hopes the Holy Spirit would lead me into all truth, why did You allow all of that to take place?'

In response heard, 'I needed to expose the part of your Adamic nature which wants to be God, before we could move on together, enabling you to come up higher in your Spiritual Awareness. Release it to Me... as children of God you are my inheritance, you are not God. You are not to ride on another's Coat Tails nor to presume based upon another's Testimony. Seek Me and My will of the moment first. Put your trust in Me not a man or their teachings, not in your belief, or your inherent right to My power as a Child of God. Come to ME directly first. I will reveal and confirm my Truth. I will reveal My will with wondrous signs following...'

Humbled... I have sought to do so as His child who is aware I am growing in Spirit and Truth according to His plan for my life.  I understand better these days what it means to die daily to the old ways of being, perceptions and preconditioning before I was born of the Holy Spirit, that I might embrace the new life with His regenerative power and all He desires having offered such.

In the previous post 'Readers Request: A 'Death by Chocolate' Recipe, I mentioned the person who requested the Recipe was in need of prayer for cancer. I also named a new few others who are desirous of a Miracle. By way of encouragement to them and other's with a desire for a genuine Miracle; and for the benefit of those who are seeking for themselves the Truths of God, at this time I am being inspired to share a Testimony of a Miracle Healing in my own life.  This is an excerpt from my Draft Manuscript to one of my upcoming EBooks, 'Enter into Gods Rest ... A Spiritual Journey of Faith and the Heart of God'.

At the beginning of my Spiritual Journey of Faith in 1978, I began experiencing pain in my side... it was excruciating. It felt like acid burning deep within.  I went to the Doctors and was diagnosed with a Tubular Pregnancy. I was shocked to discover I was Pregnant again, even through I was on the Birth Control Pill. I was equally shocked, because I was also unaware a Woman could become Pregnant in her Fallopian Tube … The Doctor scheduled me for Surgery as soon as possible. I was afraid...


When I mentioned to someone at a Church I was led to attend as a new Believer that I was in need of Surgery and how I was afraid, they suggested that I open the New Testament and read about the healing power of Jesus.  


Before reading, I asked the Spirit of the Lord to speak to me and reveal Father's will for my life. This was a new way of being for me.... it was not until after I received the Holy Spirit through a Born Again Experience, that I became aware this was His desire for my life ... and one of the secrets to having an intimate spiritual relationship with Him. 


As I read, I was shocked to read how, in His desire to manifest Father's will for us Jesus ignored the protests of the Religious Leaders of His day and openly healed and delivered people from bondage while urging, 'only believe'. I wondered why they protested and how could they think such Miracles are from the Devil.  He would reveal such to me as I grew in Spirit and Truth, it was a necessary part of His plan... so the whole world could eventually have their eyes opened to the Truth of their need of a Messiah and the New Covenant offered through Him.


While reading I thought,


My Faith having been increased through reading Scriptures of our Creator's desire to heal and deliver us from the bondages which kept us from knowing His truth, I was moved to pour out my heart, "Heavenly Father, I have Surgery scheduled, and I am afraid. You know all the facts. You made this body… You can heal it. The Bible shows how Jesus healed people in Your Name boldly revealing Your will, urging them to have faith.  Recently, through Jesus imparting the Revelation of You and Your Holy Spirit with the gift of faith, You revealed YourSelf and gave me Your Holy Spirit so I could be empowered by Your Spirit to receive Your will for my life.  When You empowered me with the gift of the Holy Spirit, You manifested it with a gift of Prayer ... so I am going to just sit here and yield to the words of the Holy Spirit within, with the special language His Spirit prays as I do... while I wait for Your will to be done."


Since this Prayer Language comes with ease I began fully expecting to be healed... or for something to happen to reveal to me why not. I was becoming use to the Holy Spirit dropping Revelations into my Spirit via impressions, leaving me with a knowing which brought peace and joy.  I had only actually heard Father's Voice audibly at our initial encounter, so I did not expect Him to speak directly. As I prayed with the Gift of Prayer in a Tongue unknown to me, perhaps you can imagine my surprise when I began to notice a Gentle voice speaking from deep within. It was repeating, "Go off of the pill." 


I remember responding with the question... "Go off of the pill?" 


I will never forget what I heard next.  God's Spirit spoke from deep within with the words, "I am the Creator of life and Death, all that is. I desire for you to trust Me with your entire life... including your Birth Control, you no longer have need of it. You know My plan for you is good and not evil. Having surrendered your Life to Me for My purposes you know you are not the one in control. It would be foolish for you to use birth control.  IF I desire a Life to come forth... it will... if this is not my plan for your Life, it won't. All you need do is trust Me and in My purposes for you and them."


It was then His Spirit reminded me of my previous Pregnancies and the ways in which they had been conceived ... as well as their outcome. Through the eyes of hindsight, I could see, no attempt on my part had empowered me to prevent them, nor to make them happen according to my plan. I recognized as well, I had always wanted His will to be done, on some level deep. Realizing I had not really known what was best for my future ... I only thought I did ... I now understood that God simply wanted me to trust in His Loving plan. Surrendering to this awareness... I came to a place of deeper peace and joy within.  I felt secure in His unconditional love... a love He had told me on our first encounter, 'I could not earn nor destroy'.


Upon receiving His understanding, I was able to surrender to His will and receive with faith.  Once I did, the excruciating pain left immediately, never to return. 


When I went to the Doctors, upon examining me he found no sign of a Pregnancy... so I shyly revealed to him my experience. Although I knew I was healed, and was praying God would reveal Himself and His healing power to the Doctor through this event, what he said next surprised and encouraged me, "This has to be a Miracle! If I had misdiagnosed you, a Cyst or Tumor of that size upon bursting... would have sent poison throughout your body and you would be dead. I am beginning to have a lot of Women who are coming into my office who also say they have been healed after Prayer... so 'who am I' to say you all are wrong. I myself, have no other explanation."

As I ponder over the memory spoken of in the Previous Blog (please read No Ordinary Miracle first),  I am reminded of the moment when God answered my prayer and Evelyn asked me to be a part of her Home Birth experience ... I was delighted to be asked and considered it an Honor; the joy which comes through the privilege of helping to bring new life forth with an awareness of the Presence of our Creator and the unfolding of His Plan for us is indescribable. Such experiences are filled with Sacred Moments that change us.  This was not my first Home Birth, nor would it be my last and it appears to have been part of the training needed for when through Father's Sovereign Plan I became a Shepherdess and assisted in the birthing of a Horse on an Easter Morning a few years later.  The uniqueness of each Birthing Process be it Human or Animal is a wonder to behold.

While Evelyn's birthing process was taking longer than most... I remember being overcome with a Knowing I needed to take a power nap in preparation for that which was to come ... only to be suddenly awakened by the words 'Death shall not have this little one.' as a sense of urgency overtook my Spirit. I discerned these words had come from the Spirit of the Lord and sensed His Anointing filling me as they sank in.

Upon walking back into Evelyn and Jim's Bedroom the Midwife immediately asked me to sit behind Evelyn, as she was completely exhausted and was in need of merging with the strength within me.   The Anointing and strength which energized and flowed through me, was surprising, as I myself was in the middle of a 40 day fast. The unexpected words which came out of my mouth in the midst of the crisis that soon followed astounded me. It was not until I reflected upon these words tonight 20 years later, that I saw Jesus and Lazarus in my Spirit... and realized before His death, Jesus spoke to the Spirit of Lazarus calling him forth from the realm of Death manifesting His Father's power over life and death (Jesus said the works that I do are of the Father's Spirit) ... and almost 2,000 years later, could it be though Evelyn, His Living Spirit within her called forth their Son, Aaron David, a name not previously considered ... up until the moment those unexpected names came out, it was their Family Tradition to begin all their children's first names with an R.

Years later, while rejoicing with our Daughter and her Hubby over the miracle conception of their first child,  through their first try, a rare event with In vitro Fertilization, I heard what I have come to recognize as the Voice of God's Spirit say, 'One Hundred and Fifty to Two Hundred Years ago they would not have lived, but due to the advancement of Medicine they will.' I wondered, what will take place?  I sensed I was to tell no one but my husband as peace filled my heart, releasing me from the anxiety which only moments before attempted to overtake me.  I am reminded today, as a Spiritual Baby I assumed something like In Vitro Fertilization would be humanity playing God...because my elders said so; but as I grew in Spirit and Truth under Father's tutelage, I was given the understanding... it is God's Spirit who is the Source of all that is, Who is the Creator of life and death and our power is limited until He increases it through our Union with His Spirit ... each Generation a little more enlightened than the last, through Christ ... the Anointing of God. I understood, without His Spirit, In Vitro Fertilization would not work.

In my Spirit that day, I also saw our Daughter's water break naturally and knew this would be significant. While in the midst of what the Doctor had determined was False Labor our Daughter was concerned she might not know for sure when she's in labor, I told her what I saw in my Spirit in an effort to assure her all will work out. She smiled politely before replying, 'Mom do you know how seldom a woman's water breaks in advance?'

What appeared to the Doctor on call to be days of False Labor due to no dilation, in reality was infection spreading to different organs within our Daughters body... to include the Placenta. Although flu like symptoms can come with False Labor, this was not discovered until after she was sent home and her water broke, revealing it was soiled due to the stress of the child within  We took her back to the Birthing Center immediately. As our Daughter's Fever rose and the heart rate of their baby got dangerously high the inner knowing and words I heard at the beginning of her Pregnancy returned to my mind. I sought to rest in their promise of a good outcome, even though the Medical Staff knew there was cause for alarm. Due to the danger involved for both the mother and baby, an emergency C Section immediately took place.  Except for the need of transfusions for our Daughter both were fine. The Doctors marveled that their Baby Girl's Apgar Test Score was a perfect 10 because 7 is the average number for a baby who is not born under duress.

As I listened with compassion to our Daughter and her Hubby recently discuss their desire for a Son and their concerns over the trials and tribulations which come through attempting In Vitro Fertilization again and remembered all of the physical and emotional pain that took place previously, once again I silently asked Father for a healing Miracle in their behalf and in behalf of others like them. They did not have the faith to do so, but I did, for I have received the miracle of healing on more than one occasion. I asked Father if it was in His plan and timing, to heal her body, to please give them a baby, the Son they desired, naturally. When my Daughter told me she thought she might be Pregnant because her next Cycle had not come, I told her of my most recent prayer and dared to hope with her. When she took an at Home Pregnancy Test, later that day we marveled and rejoiced when it said she was Pregnant. Her Hubby was especially relieved when we found out a few days later it was definitely not a Tubular Pregnancy. Initially she had been told although she had a 3% chance of conceiving in her one good Ovary, more than likely it would be a Tubular Pregnancy, if the disease she had did not flush out the fertilized egg before it had the opportunity to attach itself to the wall of her uterus.

Shortly after... her Hubby's Dad said he had an unusual dream.  He never dreams of his Father, but the night before he had a conversation with his Dad in a realistic dream. In the dream he was telling his Father that his Son was having another child, but they were at lost for a name... to which his Father responded, 'The Baby already has the name that really matters.'  As he told us this dream over our Thanksgiving meal together, we all wondered if then meant a Son was on the way.

As I reflect and meditate upon the details of these memories ... all that has happened to us and others; the possibility of that which is to come and the Sovereign Will and Timing of God's Eternal Plan, once again I can identify with Nettie Mae in my short Short Story No Ordinary Miracle:

"She was overcome with gratitude for the gift of life she had witnessed once again. This was a sacred moment and she started to sing a song of thankfulness and adoration to her God, as was her habit, but she soon discovered, today mere words would never be enough.  They were replaced by a tear which teetered on the rim of her eye, as she understood today they had experienced no ordinary miracle."